I Am Thankful for The Chronic Illness Community

Every year on Thanksgiving I take a minute to reflect upon what I am thankful for. I have found hope, solace and support among the chronic illness community of spoonies, zebras, potsies and zipperheads! I have met some of my best friends here and it's comforting to know that we can relate to each other's struggles on a personal level. It's also a major victory when one of my chronic illness friends has a good day or their health improves. We all know not to take those days for granted and what a major milestone health improvements can be. Even the smallest health victories are worth celebrating. It's amazing to have friends of all ages, from all different walks of life, from all over the country and all over the world sharing the same conditions. Although these cruel conditions are often what unites us initially, I have found that there is often so much more that we share. We are much, much more than just our illnesses and are certainly not defined by them. I often talk excessively about my condition to my chronic illness friends simply because they really get it, and they can relate. But I have found that the majority of us share many common interests and attitudes beyond our shared symptoms. If you are reading this, I am thankful for YOU!

Cucumbers are Cool...And Curative!

While I very seldom read email forwards, the ones from my grandma tend to be useful and from reputable sources. This one, detailing the health benefits and myriad household uses of cucumbers, caught my attention. I already knew cucumbers were healthy. An alkaline food, they help balance pH and are one of the only foods that never cause me acid reflux. They really seem to help settle my stomach and are refreshing. I also love me a cucumber peel facial. Here is the email forward verbatim:

Never thought that CUCUMBER can do so much!

The Amazing Cucumber

This information was in The New York Times several weeks ago as part of their "Spotlight on the Home" series that highlighted creative and fanciful ways to solve common problems.

1. Cucumbers contain most of the vitamins you need every day, just one cucumber contains Vitamin B1, Vitamin B2, Vitamin B3, Vitamin B5, Vitamin B6, Folic Acid, Vitamin C, Calcium, Iron, Magnesium, Phosphorus, Potassium and Zinc.

2. Feeling tired in the afternoon, put down the caffeinated soda and pick up a cucumber. Cucumbers are a good source of B Vitamins and Carbohydrates that can provide that quick pick-me-up that can last for hours.

3. Tired of your bathroom mirror fogging up after a shower? Try rubbing a cucumber slice along the mirror, it will eliminate the fog and provide a soothing, spa-like fragrance.

4. Are grubs and slugs ruining your planting beds? Place a few slices in a small pie tin and your garden will be free of pests all season long. The chemicals in the cucumber react with the aluminium to give off a scent undetectable to humans but drive garden pests crazy and make them flee the area.

5. Looking for a fast and easy way to remove cellulite before going out or to the pool? Try rubbing a slice or two of cucumbers along your problem area for a few minutes, the photochemical in the cucumber cause the collagen in your skin to tighten, firming up the outer layer and reducing the visibility of cellulite. Works great on wrinkles too!!!

6. Want to avoid a hangover or terrible headache? Eat a few cucumber slices before going to bed and wake up refreshed and headache free. Cucumbers contain enough sugar, B vitamins and electrolytes to replenish essential nutrients the body lost, keeping everything in equilibrium, avoiding both a hangover and headache!!

7. Looking to fight off that afternoon or evening snacking binge? Cucumbers have been used for centuries and often used by European trappers, traders and explores for quick meals to thwart off starvation.

8. Have an important meeting or job interview and you realize that you don't have enough time to polish your shoes? Rub a freshly cut cucumber over the shoe, its chemicals will provide a quick and durable shine that not only looks great but also repels water.

9. Out of WD 40 and need to fix a squeaky hinge? Take a cucumber slice and rub it along the problematic hinge, and voila, the squeak is gone!

10. Stressed out and don't have time for massage, facial or visit to the spa? Cut up an entire cucumber and place it in a boiling pot of water, the chemicals and nutrients from the cucumber with react with the boiling water and be released in the steam, creating a soothing, relaxing aroma that has been shown the reduce stress in new mothers and college students during final exams.

11. Just finish a business lunch and realize you don't have gum or mints? Take a slice of cucumber and press it to the roof of your mouth with your tongue for 30 seconds to eliminate bad breath, the photochemical will kill the bacteria in your mouth responsible for causing bad breath.

12. Looking for a 'green' way to clean your faucets, sinks or stainless steel? Take a slice of cucumber and rub it on the surface you want to clean, not only will it remove years of tarnish and bring back the shine, but is won't leave streaks and won't harm you fingers or fingernails while you clean.

13. Using a pen and made a mistake? Take the outside of the cucumber and slowly use it to erase the pen writing, also works great on crayons and markers that the kids have used to decorate the walls!!

Pass this along to everybody you know who is looking for better and safer ways to solve life's everyday problems.

All I Can Do is Cry

Lately I have been at a loss for words. This past week has been better health wise but more emotionally draining than I could have ever imagined. Last SuperBowl Sunday started out with some bad news: my great aunt passed away at the age of 89. She lived a long and happy life and up until the last years her wits were all in tact. Her name was Betty but as kids we fondly referred to her as Betty Boop and she proudly embraced the nickname. Although her passing did not come as a huge shock, it still filled me with a stinging sadness. My mom and I managed to go out shopping for a little bit in her honor. Betty was a shopaholic and a half. I knew she wouldn't want everyone to be moping around upon the news of her death so I figured it would be best to get out of the house for a bit and try to remember the good times.

When we returned home a few hours later, I checked my email and my Facebook account and clicked on a link to a breaking news story that left me screaming in horror. A local murder suspect whose wife has been a missing person for months blew up himself and his two young sons that Sunday afternoon. I remember feeling the same way I felt on 9/11: for a split second thinking it was an accident but then all too soon realizing that it wasn't. This disturbed man had deliberately murdered his own sweet and innocent children. This story hit particularly close to home because I am friends with a family friend of theirs and have been rooting for those two little boys ever since their mother's disappearance two years ago. It was a shocking, heartbreaking day. Our whole community is still grieving the loss of these two little boys and will be for quite some time to come.

Maybe it was all the emotional stress, the fact that I can never seem to shut my brain off after traumatic events, or the fact that I don't seem to sleep much during stressful times, but my emotions seemed to manifest themselves physically this week. I passed out in the shower for the first time. I don't normally pass out. I can usually tell when I'm getting close and sit or lay my butt down before it happens. I felt very lightheaded and disoriented in the shower and attempted to get out but then found myself waking up on the shower floor with the warm water running over me. I also managed to break my plastic shower chair in two on the way down so I imagine I didn't fall too gracefully. I have been a bit sore ever since and I assume it also had something to do with the heat of the shower.

I did not go to the doctor immediately afterwards but I did schedule an appointment with my electrophysiologist (the soonest I could get in is March 1st) to report my passing out to him and to obtain the results of a yearly echocardiogram that I am going in for later this week. My last echo was done in 2008 and the geneticist who diagnosed my EDS recommended that all EDS patients go in for an echocardiogram at least every other year as a preventative measure to detect any structural cardiac abnormalities.

Tomorrow I have an interview with an SSI representative to determine whether or not I am eligible for any benefits. My lawyer informed me that my hearing for disability is another 9 months to a year away so that I should take the SSI interview for now and cross my fingers that it goes through. I have a very small retirement account from my old employer that may render me ineligible for benefits at the moment. And quite frankly, I resent having to "spend up" my hard-earned retirement earnings at a 50% loss simply to obtain the benefits I have previously earned by working. Either way I hope to have more information tomorrow and I'm really hoping that there is some positive news around the corner.

On a brighter note, I'm finally ready to resume Dr. Levine's exercise protocol for POTS and have a hunch that my results will be promising since my symptoms have responded positively to exercise in the past. My laparoscopic appendectomy scars are barely noticeable anymore, in fact they're almost gone! My skin healed very nicely after the surgery and I am pleased that I didn't experience any major complications in the healing process. The surgeon has cleared me to start exercising again at any time! I am glad that nasty old appendix is outta me and extremely thankful that I made it through both the surgery and the recovery successfully!

Let's see...what else have I been up to lately? Still working part time from home although it's a challenge some days I feel like I am finally making some positive progress at work. In my spare time I have been catching up on a lot of shows: Pit Boss, Dance Moms, Teen Mom 2, Revenge, America's Supernanny, Hoarders, Intervention, even a new one called Mud Cats. It's like TLC's Hillbilly HandFishin' but better! There are still a handful of other shows, new and old, that I also intend to catch up on in the near future. I figure vegging out in front of the television will be a nice way to recover from the rigorous exercise my body is about to endure.

I am also hoping that the exercise regime will serve to distract me from my own emotions right now. I have a really hard time trying to wrap my head around the concept of death and the finality of it all. I really need to pour myself into something so that I don't have so much time to think about all the injustices and cruelties in the world. If anything positive came out of this week it is the fact that I appreciate my own family more. My two little cousins are the same age as the two boys that were murdered. Their family will no longer get to play with them or delight in their youthful energy. Although my cousins are rambunctious and have extreme behavioral problems at times, this weekend I found myself able to overlook that and just be thankful for their presence.

Here I sit somberly on the eve of Valentine's Day and I can't help but think that Heaven gained some good ones this week. My great aunt Betty, the young Powell boys and the inimitable Whitney Houston. These losses leave me deeply saddened and I have spent a disproportionate amount of this past week with tears in my eyes. The following song says it all.

'Healing Hands'

Yet another wondrous mixed media piece, 'Healing Hands,' by my wonderful friend Marie C. Sakai, artist and editor at All Things Healing. View more of her work on her Facebook Fan Page or her personal blog.

Guest Post: Defying Gravity

The following is a guest post written by a good friend of mine from college, Marie C. Sakai. She drew her inspiration for 'Wings' from the song 'Defying Gravity.' Marie is an amazingly talented artist, writer, and above all else, a wonderful human being. She is an editor for All Things Healing and teaches art to children in Oregon. Check out her personal blog and her Facebook fan page. Her above illustration, "The Illumination of Energy," was published in the Fall 2010 edition of 'Touch Magazine.'

Wings

When will your wings dry my beloved? When will you fly the sky again across moon beams and pyramids and find yourself in love again with the world you came out of?

When will you soar the sky, take a quantum leap into the world farther than the eye can see and the ear can hear--farther than anything else my dear. How far will you go how far will you come? What is that you have been longing to undone and what is it you have been longing to do inside of me and you.

Where are those wings now? Furled and encumbered, I know it true. But don't worry my child, my love, My beloved you'll start happening too.

You may not be able to defy gravity yet, but you know that would be the perplexity of the whole thing definitely. You may not be able to justify what and why things happened to you--but I'm not interested in the why, I just want to know what your soul feels like when it soars that sky so blues, so augmented hue of greens, that you fly the sky far away that you go where you soul leads you to stay. I want to know what happens when you go--what happens when you know all the souls that go with you-are drying their wings too.

mcs